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New Years – Reflection and Self Discovery

Well it’s another New Years Eve. I always hear that it has come so fast!  And I’m usually the one saying it. It seems like we just had New Years Eve and that I built my vision board for 2012.  But here it is again.  Last year was not the best Holiday Season, at least for me. It wasn’t special, it wasn’t exciting, I didn’t even put up a tree!  This year was different. Amazing how life can change on a dime, isn’t it? 

 This Christmas was the best Christmas ever, at least that is this writer’s feeling.  This past year has brought both real heartache and true love……all in the same year.  I guess it’s lucky that way.  Balance is important and it is really heaven when we can achieve it amidst a harried and insecure world.

So on the agenda for the holidays was parties with good friends and meeting some new ones; shopping on Christmas Eve to feel the hustle and bustle of the holidays, and of course spending time with my Eric. My tree was the best one ever with butterflies, New Orleans style masks, glitter and every girls favorite, shoe ornaments! All these things made this the best Holiday ever! 

On the stressful side this season was Family and work drama.  Sometimes it seems this drama will never end and it’s a part of everyday living, but I believe it’s all in how you hande it. You can be aware of all the drama playing out, choose to acknowledge it and engage in the continuing saga, or be aware of it and decide if engaging in it is worth your time, effort and possible aggravation. Obviously some drama needs to be addressed, especially if it effects your work adversely or family happiness. Maybe sincere apologies need to be made, not only to diffuse the drama, but to mend hearts and families. Maybe a clarification of events or of a discussion that took place. Search your heart and soul and hear what your inner voice is telling you. Don’t be afraid to say you were in the wrong either. It’s not about being right or wrong. Life is all about growth and being real. You can’t be real if you can’t even admit you have faults and make mistakes. And if your soul searching reveals some self-discoveries that are less than pleasant, treat yourself and others, for that matter, with gentle thoughts, love and forgiveness.  It’s the only way……and besides It’s the New Year!   A time for reflection, renewal, and moving past obstacles that keep you from your Fabulous Self! 

So my friends, I will close by wishing all of you a safe, drama free, prosperous,  loving New Year. Enjoy the reflective New Years Eve in this, the remainder of 2012. The end of the world did not happen and I’m so glad because I have so much to do! Including finishing yet another TV ArtScapes DVD – HanaScapes and MountainScapes!

Love, Light and Happiness People.  Live it, Spread it,  Be it.
The world needs it.

Veronia Crystal Young   40s Goddess    www.tvartscapes.com   

Dad

Dad

As Father’s day came around again, last week I find I want to write about that days subject –  Dad’s.

We all have one. When we are little, they seem to be larger than life. This can be positive or negative, depending on your Dad, of course.  As a girl, you know and trust that Dad will protect and provide for you.  I can only assume it is the same for boys.

We get a lot from our parents.  How relationships work, how they don’t.  How to trust or not trust, how to love, how to hate.  Being a parent is a hugh responsibility.  Some people are meant to be parents, some not.  No matter which type of parent you think you are or will become, know that you have a great impact on the little ones that depend on you every day.

My Dad was very dedicated to us when we were young.  He worked 2 jobs and my mother was able to stay at home, which was a great thing.  When we four kids grew older, around 10-15, he took a job with the post office which is where he retired.  We always took great vacations – camping, boating, going to other states and national parks. It was a blast and those are times I will always cherish.

My dad was also “the enforcer.”  You know that line, “wait till your father gets home,” well we heard it a lot.  Or maybe it was just something us kids understood without the actual words being said.  We knew if we were giving mom grief or we were fighting a little too much, that we would be in trouble when Dad got home, so we were basically “scared” into being good kids.  I guess that’s the point, right?

Around my 7th or 8th grade year my Father changed. Maybe it was the fact that my two older brothers were at those difficult teenage years.  Maybe it was because his own memories of this teenage years came back to him (Whatever that was) and he couldn’t disconnect from the anger, hurt , guilt or abuse from his own past.  I don’t know.  Towards me he became more controlling and became physically abusive.  Towards my brothers he just became mean and we all suffered his psychological abuse.  No matter the reason, It happened and it is a part of my past and who I am. It always will be.  But the past is the past, and it is imprtant to understand and that.

As you grow older, the larger than life persona that was Dad fades away as we come to realize he is just  a man, just a human being like everyone else.  He has his faults, flaws, hang-ups…just like the rest of us.  There comes a time in every adult’s life where we can either blame our parents for the way our lives turned out, or we can forgive and move on to the reach the other side…to individuality, strength, self-worth and love.  It’s a much better road, I assure you.

I forgave my Dad along time ago.  He sits in a Alzheimer’s home currently.  He has forgotten the life of abuse he inflicted. It’s convenient I guess.  His guilt is also forgotten and he spends his time in “no time” with “no body.”  He lost his entire family due to his inability to search his soul, face himself and his demons and do what is right with the responsibility of raising a family.

I used to be sad on Father’s Day.  But now, I just remember the good man, the man I knew he was before whatever latched onto him that took him to dark places that he did not have the strength to battle.  Before he lost site of Love and of himself.

I forgive you Dad.  I love the man you once were…..and I miss him.I hope you find peace, I know I have.

So as Father’s day passes again, remember your Dad.   The good, the bad, the struggles, the joys…and bless the man that helped create the wonderful, strong, beautiful person that is YOU.

Love and Light always my friends,

Veronica Crystal Young –   40s Goddess

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